Mine is to do with control yes (being male).
Personally it’s internal trauma, I don’t care what society deems good looking or what I should look like (to others).
So I don’t have any major triggers besides someone saying that ‘I look well’, awful thing to say for me personally(I want to appear unwell, it’s common).
Still in full anorexia so I can’t pinpoint why(yet), all I know it’s down to trauma I’ve experienced.
You are clearly in the wrong job.